Waiting for Abigail

I am so eager for this Labor to begin. Having never actually gone into labor, I'm fairly nervous about what this will all be like. Don't worry I'm not going to go into the details that would make most readers uncomfortable, but I will say that I know I am making progress. It is hard to know that my body is gearing up, and not know when I'll actually make the 15 minute trip to the hospital.

Every day I battle with myself, knowing that I need to just go about life, enjoy the time with my family, and she'll come when she'll come. On the other hand, I want to be able to put it on a to do list one day and then check it off before going to bed that night. HA! I so know that isn't how it works. Given the importance of mental and physical relaxation for managing the pain of an unmedicated birth days like today really worry me.

However, God reminded me today that ultimately my ability to wait and to endure comes from Him, and not me. What a relief! My labor book talks about going through transition labor and quotes a woman who says, "once you can't take anymore, there isn't anymore to take". That reminded me of the promise in 1 Corinthians 10:13, "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." As I wait, I have to lean on that promise.